Dr.G - Painkiller

This was the second song i recorded. A little different, It`s a pretty laidback track, enjoy. :)

Dr.G - Now you know

This is the first song i ever made called Now You Know! You can find the lyrics below. enjoy :)

Dr.G on air (radio, p5)

Preforming part of the new joint- The strive - on p5, which is a norwegian radio station! check it out :)

Lyrics, Now you know - Dr.G

Intro: this goes way back in time, this is the story about my life, what happen? nobody knows.

verse 1:
Been through so much its out of this world, out of control, was just a little girl, feelings all alone, my dad been long gone, my mama been close but distanced its not so weird when she herselves was a victim, my baby brother and baby sister, never get to see em, on the other side of the globe, why is this world so cold?
Hitted once, hitted twice, all the times by people i loved strong from the inside, got no more love to give, im empty as fuck, this world stroke me so hard it made my heart stop!
They say smile you got a family! i shake my head in disbelievef, why aint god protecting me? they say pray, pray i do, it gets no better, im not lucky like you!

chorus:
Been though so much its out of this world, out of control, was just a little girl feeling all alone, up against the wall, nothing to do but to try my best im still here i survived the stress.
Been though so much its out of this world, out of control, was just a little girl feeling all alone,i should feel strong, but i feel reversed, my life is 80 % pain and 20 % hurt!

verse 2:
trynna help my best friend get her life on track only to get a bunch of shit back,it dont take to much to see through your skin, i scum through your skull like a rush from a pill, remember how you used to hate on me, pretending you cared, how you used to smile, you should know that the fakeness in your eyes cant hide, i dont need you so imma leave you! hahaha!
my mama got herself a new boyfriend, dof to the core, he abused her mind once, then did it some more, she cries more then she smiles, broken nose trynna feed three child!
did a bunch of stupid but im still here, and like 2pac said, keep yourself alive is the most important thing, is the most important thing!

chorus:
Been though so much its out of this world, out of control, was just a little girl feeling all alone, up against the wall, nothing to do but to try my best im still here i survived the stress.
Been though so much its out of this world, out of control, was just a little girl feeling all alone,i should feel strong, but i feel reversed, my life is 80 % pain and 20 % hurt!

verse 3:
So i might not be living good or well, but life goes up and down like a carousel, sometimes its heaven, sometimes its hell, now i got to play the game, i cant make the past fade away, but im happy for all the mistakes that i made, got to learn and gain to remain, cuz strongness comes through pain!

chorus:
Been though so much its out of this world, out of control, was just a little girl feeling all alone, up against the wall, nothing to do but to try my best im still here i survived the stress.
Been though so much its out of this world, out of control, was just a little girl feeling all alone,i should feel strong, but i feel reversed, my life is 80 % pain and 20 % hurt!

This is the story about my life, what happen? Now you know! Now you know!

fatique vs euphoria

Been dreaming for years, I know where I wanna be, when I see into my future I see it vividly, painting this beautiful picture called life, perfectly, painful past remember everything it did to me, but hey im grateful, you should know that, everything that is thrown on me, I throw back, You can say a lot about me, but you should know this, im strong as a bull, I feed on pain, man i`ve never been this full, got love for a real battle, Because I learn, burn and earn on it. My life like a monster movie, look pass the screen, everybody flee the scene, while I stand back, I love it, it’s almost like pain speaks to me.
Come on give me all you got, throw fuel at this heat, sorrow hurt and pain, that is what I eat, when the going gets though the though get going, of life’s strive I could never get enough, now you know it.
Come on give me all you got, no matter what you do to me, you can’t make me stop, I might fall down, but life is valley and peaks, and from the bottom I can only excel, struggle is a blessing to me.
You know I cried when you rejected me, because those words you said affected me, but im strong from the core and out, im going to handle this perfectly, and get even stronger out deffentley, never let anger and depression get the best of me, wasn’t benefitted by birth, I wasn’t even meant to be, sometimes I look on my life hopelessly, but something in me tells me to get up, and no matter how hard I try I can’t give up, see people with larger burdens than mine, knowing my life is there, I can’t call it off before time, cant disappoint the people that loves me, this goes to you mom, you’re everything and more then you should be, and thanks to you daddy for raising me as your own child, know that all of you are always on my mind, and whatever it is I will be there to help out, no doubt, whatever you need, for all of you I would bleed, This is the concussion, my permanent state of mind, im special maybe im a wonder child, give me hate, I give you love, give me lies I’ll take of your glove, do me wrong, I put my faith to the man above.
Come on give me all you got, throw fuel at this heat, sorrow hurt and pain, that is what I eat, when the going gets though the though get going, of life’s strive I could never get enough, now you know it.
Come on give me all you got, no matter what you do to me, you can’t make me stop, I might fall down, but life is valley and peaks, and from the bottom I can only excel, struggle is a blessing to me.
Time and hope can get anybody where they want to be, look at me, living my dream out, you see, there has been moments i was as good as resigned to failure, but I made this picture shine with my color by conjure, against the odds, against the stream, nothing can stop me, I give breath to the things I dream. Push until it hurts, push it beyond my screams, pain is pleasure, I want to see life with all its pride, nothing is like a letdown, and I aint going to hide, strike me with the bullets of hell, life is ups and downs like a carousel, I hope I inspire people by the stories that I tell, that you too can excel, because depression is a spell, wake up cant u hear the bell, listen life is more then what you feel it is, life is everything you can imagine it. See it clear, create your vision, make a decision to make it your mission, one day you`ll see that you don’t get far with wishing, you got to do do, do and do, everything you want to, life is only what you make it, it’s this and only this opportunity so take it!

My words

These chains are tight and heavy, for all these tasks, man i`ll never be ready, but keeping my focus steady, hip hop`ll always be with me, no matter the quality of life good or shitty, baby feel no pitty im strong as a bull, you can eat until you burst but the emptiness inside you will never feel full, all the water in the world could never fill this thirst, because what is missing cant be filled up with nor food or words, doesn’t expect you to understand, my feelings my own, you could never comprehend.
Alone we come, alone we go, life can be so miserable, trust me I know, saw a seed let it grow, love doesn’t stick deeper then water go in oil, my tears boil, and float all over this sea, im alive but far from where I wanna be, feel like I deserve it and I probably do, but life aint fear you born in your shoes, walk with em, or take em off, your choice how to play, my life been a strive and im still suffering from it, but somehow I managed to raise above it, aint about where you are but where you are going, and some of the fun is in not knowing, im going to carry these chains until the very end, they heavy as fuck but a reminder of where im never going to again.
Could run away, run away, run away, but I feed on pain so i`d rather stay, love is bullshit and ive had enough, still there is nothing in me that would like to stop, I got this drive, always had, nothing can make me question my life or gods plan, I want this, life with all its aspects, hurt, pain, blood, sweat and tears not only the pretty surface, let me dive deep so I can understand fully, let me be hungry, let me be mad, it creates a power in me, that go far beyond any demand. It must be a purpose, and I can wait for it, the more hungry I get, the more I strive for it, kill all feel, kill all love, kill all reason, i`ll still move across the sky like the season, brighter than a star, darker then the bottom of the sea, who em I and where should I be, too high, to low, to filled with joy and to pumped with sorrow, I keep on living like there was no tomorrow.

confusement

loved you but got nothing back, felt the feeling was mutual but you denied it when I asked, leened towards me told me that you loved me, fucked up made it better, your temper changing just as much as the weather, im no weather man, cant tell you heart, the feelings rip me just as bad every time they come to tear me apart, you tell me that you love me but don’t care that I fall, where is the common sense and reason in it all? I used to be happy, but everything goes, happy and bad feelings however they show, everything good got to come to an end, you either leave or you put the fucking ring on my hand.

Blodig alvor

Jeg føler meg levende for smerten har tatt fast grep,
Kjærlighet er alvor, ingen lek,
Får ikke sove, kan ikke det,
For drømmer åpner sinnet for ting som bare hjerte kan se,
Hater følelsen, men elsket han,
Hvordan kan jeg sove når sannheten kom fram.

The Strive by Dr.G

The Strive By Dr.G
(Jayso, Beat – Lay Away)

Intro:
feel my pain as it was your own pain mutherfucker!

Verse 1:
I lay awake,
Thinking about all my mistakes,
Wonder what will it take,
To make, what I want my life to be,
im fighting with claws and nails,
Don’t want to fall back to that strive again,
Flip the coin,
Aint smoking on no joint,
They said I was gifted,
I live my life walking tip toe like a mistress,
Figure I’d make some noise,
You never know what you got until it’s gone,

(Hook)
Here I am,
Last call.
Imagine sitting by the chimney corner making music,
Open my eyes im surrounded by rain,
Feeling a sudden urge to run away,
From this pain,
Which runs through my veins,
Closing my eyes, another life, another day,

And this struggle just won’t go away,
I tell it to perish leave me alone,
But it strikes me harder into the bone,
Im cold and in this world you`re walking alone,

Reaching out for you, but your gone,
Looking down, let my thoughts fade,
Trouble standing in a huddle,
Wanting me to fail,
Screaming: Wanting me to fail!


Verse 2:
Tears dropping, dreams fly,
But I got something great, it`s called determination,
Ive come to far to let obstacles get in my way,
Won`t let me intimidate,
I know I can do this,
Pick my own shoes and run with new fuel,
Like shit you never even seen before,
Put sticks in my wheel, i`m gon keep on going,
My willpower flowing,
Sawing my dreams,
One day i`ll be there,
Among all those things I once only was dreaming,
Nothing is impossible if you put on your wings,
Realize that you can realize those things you are thinking.

(Hook)
Here I am,
Last call.
Imagine sitting by the chimney corner making music,
Open my eyes im surrounded by rain,
Feeling a sudden urge to run away,
From this pain,
Which runs through my veins,
Closing my eyes, another life, another day,

And this struggle just won’t go away,
I tell it to perish leave me alone,
But it strikes me harder into the bone,
Im cold and in this world you`re walking alone,

Reaching out for you, but your gone,
Looking down, let my thoughts fade,
Trouble standing in a huddle,
Wanting me to fail,
Screaming: Wanting me to fail!


Verse 3:
Cruel evil force holding me down,
Trying to tear down my pride, removing my shine,
What a surprise that they would have to kill me,
Cuz im just as alive as my swagga are,

Bleeding in pain, seem nobody cares,
And why should they, in this world of ego,
There is only one magic, if you wanna make it then stay a believer,
or go down, cuz this world is tragic.


(Hook)
Here I am,
Last call.
Imagine sitting by the chimney corner making music,
Open my eyes im surrounded by rain,
Feeling a sudden urge to run away,
From this pain,
Which runs through my veins,
Closing my eyes, another life, another day,

And this struggle just won’t go away,
I tell it to perish leave me alone,
But it strikes me harder into the bone,
Im cold and in this world you`re walking alone,

Reaching out for you, but your gone,
Looking down, let my thoughts fade,
Troubles standing in a huddle,
Wanting me to fail,
Screaming: Wanting me to fail!


Reaching out for you, but your gone,
Looking down, let my thoughts fade,
Troubles standing in a huddle,
Wanting me to fail,
WANTING ME TO FAIL!

Ending:(speaking)
they wanting me to fail ya`ll, but they forgot about one thing, and that is, my wings could never be broken.

Text for a new song i wrote coming soon, called - Flying high

Flying high – Dr.G

Verse:
Father, mother, gad please forgive me for my sins, headhunting only to win, i got this drive can’t make it disappear, it’s in me, it’s on me, it’s been me, and it’s still in me, to be the best i gotta beat the best so here i am, closing chapters for people who just couldn’t understand, I’ve been flying for so long, I don’t know how to dive, high up in the sky, watching my own strive in a birds perspective, working, cuz I’m tired of being misdirected, love only thorn me apart, I’m tired of people playing with my heart. Going with what I know, wolf of the leach here we go,



Hook:
Doctor doctor,
Save me, save me,
Flying high up in the - sky
Music is my savior, never felt so alive,
I could die right here at this spot, I wouldn’t mind,
Doctor doctor,
Save me, save me,
Flying high up in the - sky
Music is my savior, never felt so alive,
Lived through so much trouble, but I love this strive.

Verse:
You can’t reach me, I’m to gone, you can’t kill me, I’m to alive, you can’t slow me down.
¬¬¬¬¬¬Got a prone of doing right, I can put up a fight, aint no killa but I carry a knife,

Incredible aint it, how I express myself through lyrical rhymes? It was this or the physiatrist, therapy sessions, with the mike or with the doctor, and so I chose music to keep me here, I put all that I have anger and fear, aggression and disappear into lyrical lines; it was about time, sick by heart or sick by mind? Sick being stuck among lies, seem to me dying is the only way to survive, but I aint ready, so

Hook:
Doctor doctor,
Save me, save me,
Flying high up in the - sky
Music is my savior, never felt so alive,
I could die right here at this spot, I wouldn’t mind,
Doctor doctor,
Save me, save me,
Flying high up in the - sky
Music is my savior, never felt so alive,
Lived through so much trouble, but I love this strive.


Love or hate all that I am, im going to be here until the end.

Nouvelle. The pinioned love bird

You where just standing there, ineradicably long. Looking into my very deep blue eyes, until you at last said: No, I am so sorry. One day you will find that this was the right decision. Then you were going on and off about how much you loved me and wanted me close to you. Not that type of close that I wish you where thinking, but that kind of close that only family is. I wondered for a while if I should lean over and kiss you and ask if you still didn’t feel anything. But it stayed with the thought. The pouring rain was working for me so I could when I left you pretend that the tears never won. I couldn’t stop thinking, how could this be the right decision when we where apart? I never got the answer for that. I kept on putting everything you said and that we had done over the last couple of months on reply in my head. Like a little movie with a bad end. You know one of those movies where you get to hear peoples thoughts but never the once that means the most. The worst part about this was hearing you saying all this while seeing that you meant something different, some that was secret to you that you couldn’t talk about. Why do people say nothing when there really is an important something on the top of their head?
I sat in the stairway for a long time that night. Crying and asking these questions repeatedly. I am almost certain that no pain is greater then the one you feel when you’re rejected by someone you truly love and care about, somebody that you want in your life, and that wants you to be in theirs, but just not on the same level.
We had so much together. I don’t want to loose any part of it. Amazingly after all this pain and trouble that you put me through, I still couldn’t blame you. I wasn’t angry. I wasn’t mad. I don’t really think there is a word great enough to describe what I felt at that very moment when you told me. The closest thing must be disappointment; I felt an instant hurt and a rush of pain down my spine and into my heart. I couldn’t move. I couldn’t talk. I couldn’t cry or show emotion because I would never put you through the pain that you would feel if you ever saw me cry.
Meeting the wall like this, how did it feel? I finally know how hard bricks can be. I think I died a little bit back then. Under the open sky with pouring rain down my checks, watching you crushing every little thought I had ever had about me and you having a future together. The entire night that day I sat writing about what happen. Wondering, wishing, hoping, and knowing how you felt or should I say didn’t feel.
Where should I go from here? Should I burry this under black soil and let you go? Should I ignore those words and look upon you as I always had? Should I though it was almost impossible for me keep you in my life on your terms? I don’t know.
All I know and all that I ever knew is that I love you unconditionally.

verse

trapped in so much pain,living just to feel the hardach float through my vains, tears dropping and dreams fly, time`s walkin, but i`m fine. I`m a star raising towards the sky, you cant hold me back, i`m suppose to fly. Even in the darkest cave, even in the deepest grave, i would have no problem finding the right way. because all that is bright, that has to do with light, will always win over darkness and evil things. i shine, will always do, because i got heart and my love is true.

thoughts about a feeling

missing someone is like slowly almost dying for a long period of time, but after a while you wont be able to feel a thing, love has its on way of bringing the best with the worst, giving you the greatest memories while throwing at you the sweetest pain. but then again gad is great, and i got faith, so i believe he got game and has a plan so that we are not suffering in vain. but loving for the moment to get the best possible personal gain.

it has come to this point where i have to let you go,
even though my heart screams no,
i know that you have to spread your wings, go do your own thing,
im happy for you and i will always stay true,
to this perfect friendship between me and you.

spain is far away,
spain is a place i dont know anything about,
but i know you will bring happiness and joy to it`s coast,
just remember me and come back to those who love you the most.

rain is falling,
the sun gone to stay,
but even in the darkest places,
there is hope and faith.

remember your words,
hope for you to come back,
i will keep true to mine,
you know where i`ll be at.

love is a feeling,
love is a promise,
love is you,
and this is just me being honest.

wish you never went away,
but you had to,
wish we`ll never fade,
and we dont have to.

a verse from a love lyric i wrote. - Ripped

I hold my heart,
Hurt once to much,
You can look into my soul,
But do not touch,
Callously going,
Cuz i`ve had it with this world,
They said love was the greatest of all things,
But it only brought me hurt,
Sweet pain,
Dear mother,
I write my ache with this pen,
But he doesn’t care so why bother?
The rain is falling,
Hitting my head hard,
Feeling this pain,
Like it was written with a knife in my heart,
Left with this scar,
Looking for reason,
I guess his feelings was like the weather,
Changing with the seasons.

they learned to know me,
they learned how to let me go,
they teached me something too,
never take your friends for granted,
now i know how to keep you.

the view

the view was once only half of what it became,
standing alone in the rain,
the view felt pure pain,
the view bacame a dreamer that nobody could stop,
now the view is a dream itselves in the eyes of a child.