"Recall I used to do fine, but when you experience happiness like mine, you can never be okay with less then the full package of life. " - Dr.Gosu

Dr.G - Killer (new song, draft)

Killer

Verse 1

I stand, and I sit, I lay and I cry, so hopeless lost in sorrow just fucking wished he would die. And the silence drives me to fry my feeling and my thoughts, its more than enough, so much hature, is this real human nature? Write it down on paper, might not be here tomorrow, if I have to keep live with the pain and the sorrow.

Seeing is believing, I believe in pain more than anything else, because it was always there, love was never here, devils world, devils work, try to see what I’m worth, but it hurts.

even my mother telling me to get gone, she would have kept him and left me all alone, her own flesh and blood, her own little girl, I hate him so much, I aint got a good enough word.

Chorus:

How can she follow his commands, I would never ever, never ever, never ever, I could never ever do the same! How can she cherish the pain? How can she let him kill her. He is a killer he is a killer

verse2

I cry until the tears pour, because every time he mistreat her it’s like she is screaming for more, crawling back to the sources of her suffering, man is it weird that I’m wondering, questioning love? And all the above, when all I see is evilness and injustice being done.

She loves her pit of pain, squeeze on it, make it rain, neglect my pain, can’t seem to divide the truth from the lies, played by the best, manipulative evilness, got hit with double trouble, problems attacking me from a huddle, she gave me life but I keep no pity, I’ve done no sin, I won nothing, I just lost everything. I just lost everything, ma.

Chorus:

How can she follow his commands, I would never ever, never ever, never ever, I could never ever do the same! How can she cherish the pain? How can she let him kill her. He is a killer he is a killer

How can she follow his commands, I would never ever, never ever, never ever, I could never ever do the same!

Out of love, draft 1

My heart breaks for all the trouble ive had to take, endless ache, everytime i see her broken face, everytime i see her like that, everytime he do his evil act and i cant strike back, don’t you know that it put feelings in me that I cant neglect, there is a woman that I need to protect. Got to question god because something is really wrong, I cant comprehend what is going on, its beezerk how could you put a jerk, together with your most beautiful work? Put all that pain where it hurts! Man I don’t even carry words for this, its insane, watching her take the blame, for the bruises for the names, for the blood and for the pain!

I do this out of love, response as to how I feel. I do this out of love, justice appeal to me. Why should they go free, when you’re a prisoner in your own skin, why should victims lose while criminals win, I do this out of love, no more suffering, I do this out of love, I do this out of love

seem to me you cant see yourself that you need some help, getting back with the man who mistreated you, the man who beated you, for 4 years, still you cant see that he doesn’t care, ma I respect you, sometimes though love is needed in case to protect you, you saying it aint my buissness, but who was there when nobody would listen? You saying I should stay off, but ma you know I could never lay off, you are wrong telling me to hit the road, I know it aint easy feeling all alone, but you don’t need him, you don’t need them, just come home and lets be a family again.

I do this out of love, response as to how I feel. I do this out of love, justice appeal to me. Why should they go free, when you’re a prisoner in your own skin, why should victims lose while criminals win, I do this out of love, no more suffering, I do this out of love, I do this out of love

And just when I thought it all was over, just when I thought the pain was done, another man came and did you wrong, found you at our doorstep, bruised and out of place, gad I wish I could let him feel what I felt, how could he, he knew you`d been troubled, its like problems stands and plans evil in a huddle, cuddle you until your weak, then destroy you so your in bed for weeks, this is the last time, I swear to my ribs, one more and imma have to do some evil deeds, enough struggle, enough trouble, leave this angel alone and give her love, double.

How can i be brave in this missary, when the lips of pain is kissing me, and all the struggle slowly killing me, how can i stand my 5,4 feet with pride? when my tears dropping, when my dreams is put on hold, when my heart is breaking and ache piercing through my soul.

rough draft, new song

he lay his hands on her neck, hit her across the face pure evil act, neglect her words of mercy and love, looks to his own selfish side and beat her up, she cries, he yells, she run, she fails, he jump, they fall, he hitt her until she say no more. she flyes, he goes, nobody else but they know, shes alone, shes afraid, she is embarrased, she takes the blame, for the bruises, for the names, for the blood, and for the pain, she is wrong, he knows it, but he gives a fuck think he owns it, time goes, fly pass, there comes a time when she wonder why she never left his ass, tears dropping, dreams fly, pride is gone, and hope has died, where should she turn, nowhere to look so she burns, burn his stuff, burn his love, burn his words and burn burn burn. let me set you free, let me give you life, like you gave me mine, let me bring you up, let me take him down, lets fly, lets just take off, take off, like a plane towards the sky, take off take off like a beautiful dream set into life,.

Eminem-Talkin 2 Myself Feat Kobe

Wanted to give some creds to one of the greatest artist there is, and have ever been. Eminem. take a min to listen to Eminem ft.kobe - Talkin 2 myself (Recovery) Amazing song!
He has been a big inspiration to me.

Pain and struggle cant make me stop smiling, because i`ve sensed what the future is hiding. Imma be great, mixture of love, hope and faith, cant wait!

"You can close your eyes to what you do not want to see, but you cant close your heart to what you do not want to feel. So i rather just keep em open."

"Should i smile because we are friends, or should i cry because i know thats all we`ll ever be?"
This is a qoute about loving a friend and it couldnt suit my feelings better. Soft as new snow that has just fallen from the sky, fragile like a new born sparrow left alone in its nest they are. Still they are as deep as the bottom of the oscean and as strong as the horns of a bull. True love has no happy ending, because true love never ends, that might be correct because i see no sunshine in this deep valley and there is no where out of it. I had no coice, my heart is not a brain. I dont know how it happen all i know is that it did. im happy to know you, im scared to lose you, im confident in my affection, and im cureless left to die from this love bug.

Reflection

Winter came so fast on me this year; the cold breeze brought me into a state of mind I just could escape from. Darkness was all around me, and darkness was all I could see from inside. Everything that before had seem to have a purpose, now stood naked up against my thought on it as pointless. Why bother, why take the risk when everything where going to be razed out with the dirt in the end. The clock kept ticking and instead of just being we were stressing over something that we created ourselves. When did it become okay to let time be the boss of your life? When did it become okay to neglect yourself on the cause of something that was worthless? I say never. The constant reminder of how bad my life was faced me with two opportunities. I could either stay down or I could get up and fight. Since that day I never stopped dreaming. It became clear to me that I was supposed to live for the moment creating memories rather than for a future that might never come. To love and give everything my heart desired satisfaction became my mission. To make each day count like it was the last one I had in life. To always dream bigger then I was and had been. Cause if I couldn’t visualize myself embraced by success and love I would never ever get it. If I lived with my eyes closed I could never take the right path. Therefore I allowed myself to have it all, to see it all, everything my heart could possibly ache for. Every night I dream, I dream of greatness, I dream of wealth, I dream of love. Knowing all the struggle and pain will be worth it in the end. Analyzing myself and my emotions to get the best personal gain, tasting every flavor life carries. The magic lies in risking everything for a dream that nobody can see but me.

Magic

Im done waiting, hesitating, feeling down. I got a dream, actually i got ten, im on my way, never going back again. Aint got it all but got the most important, failure? I just cant afford it, giving no less then 100 %, working while you sleeping, dreaming beyond success, one day i will have it all, understand that i learned to fly in my fall. The magic lies in risking it all.

Heartbreak

Love been hurting me in a million ways, for a million days, still everytime it comes around i forget its ways, weak as to how it persuades me. no defence against love, im confident it is going to kill me. Like a little girl i play with it, see no consequences only the moment, no time, only to be, every stuggle is a blessing in disguice, euphoric everytime it breakes me.


Let me feel pain, let me suffer, nothing in vain, i want to feel every side of life. get a good view. FUCK YOU

You should know you mean the world to me.

"when i fall to faint you give me second chances, new paint. when im carved to dust, you still give my words unconditional trust."

Nothing is like great friends, nothing. When you hurting, needing it the most, they are going to be there regardless of any obstacle there might be. That is priceless.

John Woodens Pyramid of Success

Favorite quotes

"Hard work beats talent if talent is not working hard enough!" Unknown

"When the going gets though, the though get going!" John Wooden, Pyramid of Success

"Respect without fear, confident not cocky!" - John Wooden, Pyramid of Success

"Everybody is going to hurt you, its a matter of finding those worth suffering for." -Bob marley

"How many punches are you willing to take and keep moving forward?" Unknown